For you all information….Jiea Huan came back few month ago…hehe
ok….there is for a long time i didn’t write blog…
The holidays for this semester is very irritated ….because i worry about many thingS….hope these problems can be settled ASAP…
1)New hostel..
2)Industrial training…
3)Four wheel…
4)Bills…
5)Friends….
6)……..
When all things settled..i will "tong gai wan shan"…
2008年1月2日 晴 12.16am-12.48am
这个日记我在2008年1月1日下午1.15pm早已写好了一半。因为电脑辞典没电了，所以不能继续写完他。
“今天是2008年1月1日。今天佳桓去美国了，我真的很不舍得他噢。为了他我哭了好几次。每一次心都很酸。佳桓是个很贴心的知己。他真的帮了我好多好多。他也是第三个我愿意在他面前哭的男生。第一是我爸，第二是啊亮，第三就是他了。是他让我觉得男生跟女生是可以成为知己的。我早已习惯每次遇到家里有困难时第一个想起他。我也早已习惯他两星期或一个月有他陪我聊天。我也习惯每次喝茶都有他陪我出门。想起没了他真的有点不习惯。我们虽然只认识了5年，但他很了解我。令我最难忘的是他能无条件的为我家人付出，还记得2006。。。
我就写到这里后电脑辞典没电了，现在就让我把它继续吧。
还记得2006，我的爸爸有一次因健康出了问题而昏迷时，我第一个想起的就是他，我立刻打了通电话给他，他问也没问什么事就立刻冲到我家来。他第一时间来到就陪在我身边，那时我的心情真的轻松了很多。。他那时紧张的样子我现在都还记得。。我真的除了谢谢，也不知该说什么了。佳桓，谢谢你。
还有一次我爸爸扭伤了腰，严重的动弹不得，那时他凑巧来我家陪我聊天，当我妈妈问他是否可以把我爸爸抬上车到医院去，他想也不想立刻跑到我家楼上去把我爸爸用床褥把他抬上车。佳桓，谢谢你。
现在他去了美国，我真希望他现在还陪着我。
现在12.39am，他在今天3点中午上飞机了。应该还有一段时间他才到那里吧。我现在又哭了。我好想他噢。
佳桓，如果你有看到我这封日记的话，我很想告诉你。谢谢你。你在美国要一切小心噢。遇到困难时要坚强。“TAKE CARE，WORK HARD AND KAMBADEH ” 。我会记得的。你也是噢。要常跟我联络，我不想忘记你这位知己。
24/12/07(一) 雨 8.40PM-9.18PM
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Today is Christmas Eve, where am I going? No!!! I am sick, flu and cough. May be this is the best excuse for me, so that I can rest at home and listen to Ah-Mei’s songs. J
This few days, I met many friends. Feel happy and happiness..hehe. All of them are stay healthy and become more handsome and prettier J.When meet them, I feel like back to my secondary times. Innocent, stress less and confident. They always treat me sincere and care of me. Thank you to all of you.
Until now, I still feel that I just graduated on last year. But actually it was few years ago. Seeing back the junior, they all form 5 graduated. Time flies. I am really “not kanak-kanak anymore”…
There are many things I must handle by myself. My parents will only hope that I can faster graduate, so that they can retire ( I am the only daughter who they still have to “feed” to.). I hope so. I hope I can faster graduate and work. I feel boring to study; it is really waste of money and time to study. Don’t u think so? Let does a comparison. I have a cousin who is 27 years old now. He was studied technology until degree level. He has already graduated 3 years ago. Now, he working in a computer company, which in charge of setting some program in the company’s computer. He only earns 1500++ per month. As I know, he studied in a government U and gets a quite good result. Ok, next my elder sister, who is also 27 years old, she only study until form 4. (Many things happened until she cannot graduate, I think my best friend will know thatJ).Now, she is a beautician in New York beauty parlor which stated in Subang Parade. She earn at least 5000++ per month. what a big different!!!
Certificate is not everything and it cannot guarantee you can be successful in future , it just give you a chance to find a better job. I think the more important key still will be the attitude of the employee, whether they good in communicate and the way they get along with people. How about you opinion, what do you think is the best key to ensure one’s future will be brighter?
Anyway, I still have to study. Sob. I am going to open school on 7th JAN.
Merry Christmas to all my friends…J
I hope I free to write a blog before new year and wishing all of you Happy New year!!!!!
Stay happy is always my wish. How about yours?
Take care… to all my friends J
***Listen to Ah-Mei’s songs , She is really a best singer.
Hope you like too J
20/12/07 晴 2.27AM-2.52AM
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I always wonder why many people would like to write blog to let others know their feeling? It is not necessary to do so, right? I am wrong for so many years! When you grow older, it becomes more difficult to tell others your feeling by saying it out. So, it is the purpose of writing blog.
Many years ago,I had been tell a friend that I feel annoying to tell others my feeling, because they can’t help me and would only make me a reliant. I DON’T WAN. Many years later, I feel what‘s wrong if I a reliant? Can I handle anything by myself? Can I live without support from everyone? NO. We depend on each other to survive. This is live. Don’t always pretend you are tough. NEVER EVER PRETEND. As long as you are.
Since I pretended I am tough from the beginning, so everyone think I am. There are become less and less people would really want to know me. They think I am fine, I need not help. Am I Right? Is it what you all thinking of me?
Sometime I also feel myself very tough, but when facing problems, I don’t know what to do, what I know is only hide myself and cry. After crying, I also don’t know how to handle, sometime I just let it go and pretend nothing happened, but actually I very care. However, I can’t handle it and no one can help me and I don’t know how to get help from others.
So, when you step wrong for the first step, it is very difficult to return. Every first step can know the process you going to face. 三思而后行。
别让自己有机会后悔。May be I should learn the way to be more relax. You are learning too?
p/s: Please leave comment for me, I need your support to lead me to write blogs until 100. J
